I have been way too in my head about my creativity lately. Worrying about how much I'm not making, how much I'm not posting, how I'm losing steam on some of my projects and not keeping up with them, berating myself for feeling like I don't have time when I clearly have time if I'm doomscrolling, etc., etc., etc., and so on and so forth. Meanwhile, my creativity just keeps trying to poke her head in to say, "It was only ever supposed to be fun. It was only ever supposed to be playing." This is a thing I know, but sometimes completely unrelated life stuff can cause my brain to spiral about my creativity, which is supposed to be a place of refuge, a place of calm.

So, I was sitting at my desk looking at some long neglected embroidery projects and decided to actually listen to that little voice and just... picked one up and did some work on it. And that felt like a nice, deep, centering breath. So, that's what I'll show you today. Me, tentatively finding my way back to where I want to be; makin' stuff. Of course, on Monday my last class for my degree starts up and I will have seven weeks of stressing out about Spanish-speaking Zoom calls, but hopefully I will be able to keep the angst away from my creative brain space.

Chain Stitch Sun

And, here are a couple of Ordinary Beauty photos from the past two weeks.

Smells Like Grape Soda

Italia


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